Day 59 - Why Can't I Control My Urges?

So dumb. Was so full of good intentions yesterday after reading the forums and posting here, then when I was putting away the Christmas decorations at work yesterday afternoon I found a few mini choc bars left over from our party. I wasn't going to eat them, but then caved after Greg called suggesting we have a bottle of bubbles and go out for dinner. I initially said no, but the seed had been planted, and somehow that lead to eating crap on the way home then the bubbles (which were delicious) and the dinner out (which was also delicious). It's so hard to find a balance. I love going out for dinner with Greg. We have such a good time and enjoy it so much. It's our relaxation time and a time we can chat freely to each other about anything.

We had a big chat last night about our plans for this year, whether we're going to have babies, whether we're going to buy a house etc. No decisions made except that we both need to get in better shape. We've put a deadline on it - by the end of Feb we need to be healthy enough to start trying for kids if that is our decision. And if it's not our decision then at least we will be in better shape and ready to look into buying a house and continuing our awesome life! Whichever way we go, there does need to be some drastic changes in our mind sets. I think I need to go back and watch some of the videos and get my head back into the game. I've done nothing but eat the last 8 days, and haven't done any exercise yet this week and it's already Wednesday!

Somehow we need to change our lives so that we can continue to enjoy the things we like (eating, drinking, going out for dinner etc), but still stay healthy and save money. Moderation I think is the key. And self control and discipline. We need to set ourselves some guidelines and stick to them.

So... this evening's action plan for me:

• Now: Amend my eating plan and shopping list for this week seeing as we went out for dinner last night
• 4:30: Leave work by 4:30 
• 5:00: Go straight to the supermarket after work
• 6:00: Unpack groceries when I get home and help Greg get started on dinner
• 6:30: Head out the door for a run by 6:30 - 15min run, 10x gully sprints, jog home
• 7:15: Do first lot of planks after run - aim for 4 mins
• 7:30: Shower and dinner
• 8:00: 1 hour of Ski club work :(
• 9:00: Second lot of planks followed by relaxation time with Greg
• 10:00: Bed by 10pm
• 11:00: Lights out before 11pm

And tomorrow morning I AM going to get up and do the core workout before work. I will enjoy it, and my core is an area I need to focus on. It will also get me set up for the day. I CAN DO THIS!