So on Wednesday I reset myself by watching all the videos I could find, amping myself up and doing some of the pre-season tasks. I felt pretty good and had a really good day. We played golf after work with Greg's dad, and while they had a beer after I just had soda water with lime. Unfortunately I forgot to say fresh lime so it had lime cordial in it. But instead of just drinking it anyway as I normally would have, I only had a few sips and left the rest on the table. Yay me!
We were so tempted to go out for dinner after, especially when we realised I'd taken out the chicken in the morning to defrost and it had been left on the bench all day and all evening! Oops! We ended up throwing the chicken out, but thanks to my shopping for the whole week we had enough to make pizza. We didn't make pizza like we normally would have with loads of tomato sauce and cheese. Instead we used ricotta on the base and just had prosciutto, tomatoes, feta and olives. And it was so yummy! Also instead of eating it all, I cut my pieces quite small so I still had four pieces, but it wasn't that much at all. Yay me!
Yesterday I got up and went to yoga at the gym. I'm glad I got up and went, but it was such a crap class. The lady is far to into her alternate stuff and spent the entire class talking about energies, and the left side of the body being feminine and watery, and the right side being masculine, and working on the energy in the spleen. Bleurgh! I just wanted to get on with the yoga! I don't think I will bother going back to that class again! Better to just do my own thing at home. Still - at least I went and did something. Yay me!
I didn't go to work yesterday after the gym. I was planning to, but Greg's family were all going to Manly for lunch and I really wanted to join them, so I decided to work from home. Greg and I played golf at Cammeray in the morning which was loads of fun (more walking too!) although I played terribly. As I felt so good about myself though I was able to stay in a good happy mood and not get all shitty like I did last time. I know Greg appreciated it. Yay me!
We went to lunch at The Pantry in Manly. It's a lovely spot right on the beach, but the food was quite average I thought. I might the right choice though and got a salad, and even had the dressing on the side! I ate a few fries and some of the pate entree, but much better than normal. I also only had a little wine instead of loads. Pretty happy with that. Yay me!
Afterwards we went for a drive to North Head and checked out the amazing views. So spectacular! And then for a swim at Little Manly. What a great spot. It was cold but not too bad. I felt pretty big in my bikini against Gregs sis who is in amazing shape, but no where near as bad as I would have 3 months ago. Something to be proud of. Yay me!
Then last night we made dinner for Greg's family. We had quite a lot of nibbles (which I ate too much of), and then yummy lamb, sausages, roast potatoes (in duck fat! mmmm!) and a salad. I only had a little lamb, half a sausage, some salad, and probably a couple too many potatoes, but again no where near as bad as I normally would have been. I also only had a small amount of wine. Yay me!
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And finally, to end an awesome day, I played basketball at 10pm, and we won a super close game. It was loads of fun, and I played ok. Our team rules and once we gel with the new player properly and if we are all on form we will be unstoppable. Here we come grand finals! Also I got given a certificate for being the top rebounder in the league for last season! Pretty exciting. Yay me!
And this morning when I got up and weighed in, even after the lunch out and indulgent dinner, I was in the 81s for the second day in a row. Yay me!
Today so far has been a bit of a different story however. When I got home last night the in-laws were still over, which was lovely as they were all having a great time, but they didn't leave until after midnight, and I couldn't shower until they left as the baby was asleep in our room. When I finally got to bed I was so tired and it was so late, and this morning I ignored my alarm for a sleep in. I think it was the right choice as I would have otherwise been exhausted, but it meant I won't have a chance for any exercise today as I'm out after work for a work friend's leaving party. I also didn't have breakfast at home, as my head was telling me that I'm going to blow it tonight anyway, so why not start now. Stupid stupid stupid! I had an egg wrap from downstairs for breakfast (not too bad), with 2 hashbrowns (bad), and then cos I forgot my cardi and was freezing, and feeling sorry for myself I went for a walk to get a new cardi and had banana bread, lemon slice and berry yoghurt. More stupid! Not much I can do about it now though. I am refusing to throw it up like I normally would have as it is so bad for me and doing that also just strengthens the justification that it is ok to binge it when it quite clearly is not! So, how to move on from here? I had thought we were all going out for lunch today too, so hadn't brought anything to eat with me. But we're not now. My tummy is feeling pretty full and uncomfortable from that binging so I am not going to eat lunch at all. I will see how I got this afternoon, and if I get hungry will make the right decision. I have a tin of tuna in my drawer, so if I need to I will eat that, and that's it! Then tonight when I'm out I'm going to be as sensible as I can and not drink too much wine, and make sure I intersperse it with lots water.
Actually I think water is a key for me. Whenever I am being "good" I always have a bottle of water on hand, and make sure I drink from it and it's filled up often. Looking back on my behaviour over the last couple of days, whenever I've stuffed up I haven't had water on hand. When I ate too many nibbles, I didn't have water. Once I got a glass of water to sip from instead I managed to stop eating. And this morning I didn't have water to drink on my way in, and my big water bottle on my desk was empty when I arrived. Need to ensure I buy a water bottle to fit in my hand bag between now and tonight.
So, quite a drastic shift in the last couple days between being amazing and being not so good. Need to keep being amazing so I can have more of the "yay me" comments.
