I am a moron

Reasons why I am a moron:

1. This week I have eaten anything and everything I could get my hands on. Sweets. Savory. Sugary drinks I don't normally touch. Butter. Lots of butter. And cheese. We've had take out 3 times. Some days I have eaten enough for a whole family. Why do I do this?

2. I have hardly exercised this week. A couple of pathetic sessions is all I have done.

3. It's late and I have to be up early for my run tomorrow but yet I am writing this. Maybe an excuse for not going as I will be too tired.

4. I haven't done hardly any ski Club work in days. Barely enough to just keep afloat. And I have loads to do. It's a long weekend and I'm going to have to now work a lot of it.

So so stupid. I've fucked up again. I had such a good week last week but this one h had been atrocious. I'm back to worse than I was 2 weeks ago. I do so well but then I sabotage it. Was feeling so good and my skin was looking better and clothes starting to fit better. And now I just feel terrible. Fat and bloated and head aches and just all round gross and disgusted with myself.

Last week I started operation Europe. We only have about 2.5 months until we go. Not long. One of my goals is to run these races. The first is tomorrow. I've been looking for reasons to not do it. But they are all just dumb excuses. My bag is packed and clothes laid out and alarm set. I'm going to get up and do it. No excuses! Let it be my first step to getting started again. I can and will do this. Time to get some sleep. My alarm will be going of way too soon.