Mojo is Back!

Had a much better last few days. I think the main instigators were being organised, and drinking my water. When I look back at my "fails" after a big success, for pretty much every one, I've been disorganised and have stopped drinking water. Add this to being tired or hungover, and it's pretty easy to see why things have fallen by the wayside. It's so much easier when you are in that state to eat comfort food, and order if you have nothing in the house. Going to the supermarket it way too hard!

Anyway, this week have been exercising and eating much better, and I'm feeling good! I've also stumbled across Jill Fit (http://jillfit.com/) and signed up to her 10 week mindset course. It's probably just another "get rich (or thin) quick" scheme, but I like some of the stuff she is saying. I know how to exercise, and know what to eat. What I can't seem to get consistently correct is my mind. Apparently for this I get an email a day, and some exercises to do.

The first email was about Trust. Basically trusting the process more, and giving up some control. This is something I struggle a bit with. I feel like if I give up control, I will go out of control and eat everything (which is essentially what happens when I get unorganised). She says if I give up control, then I also give up the food controlling me. Hmmm... Anyway, the exercise is to write down the 3 most terrifying outcomes that might come to pass if I give up my control over food, then think about them and determine if I can deal with the outcome. Here we go:

if I give up my control over food...

1. I won't think about what I eat and will eat way too much meaning that I will get even fatter - I can deal with this outcome - I already have! It's not good, and I don't want it but I can deal with it.
2. People will see how much I eat and think I'm a gross fat pig - this is harder. I often hide what I eat from others. If I give up control, then does that come out? Not sure I am ready to deal with it.
3. Can't think of #3

I kind of get it. Giving up my control is not a free ticket to easy anything, and even if it was and I did nothing really really bad will happen. And maybe if I give up control then I will stop obsessing and thinking about food so much and it will lose its control over me. Let's hope so!