Making the Right Decisions

I'm starting to make the right decisions again. Yay! Yesterday when I got home I took Parker down to the park and did my workout. It was pretty good actually. Forgot to wear my heart rate monitor (after all that about using all my gadgets yesterday), but worked pretty hard and it felt great! I had one very happy but tired puppy after as he pretty much chased the ball the entire time.

We made yummy salmon and avocado for dinner. Such a healthy dinner, and so super easy. I was supposed to play basketball last night too, but the other team defaulted. Was really disappointed at first as I was looking forward to playing, but was pretty happy when I had time to spend in a bubble bath, complete with candles. So nice!

Was hard to get up this morning but I did it! Did gazillions of hill sprints. Or at least 16 of them. 6 at 60s and 10 at 30s. Felt pretty good again. And have made good eating decisions so far today too. Porridge with kiwifruit for breakfast (yum!) and a Big Ass Salad (BAS) for lunch. So tasty! I had a fleeting thought about buying crap when I was out for lunch, but I didn't and am happy with myself for that.

I have had a bit of a headache on and off today and yesterday afternoon and evening. I think maybe from not getting my afternoon sugar hit. It's not pleasant, but I'm going to fill up my water bottle, make a cup of peppermint tea and take some nurofen then get back to work!

Here's to making the right decisions!!

Disappointed in Myself

When I take a step back and think about it I am so disappointed in myself. We booked our holiday months ago and I've had plans to lose weight since then. However, I've been a complete failure. I've lost and then gained those same few kgs over and over again, but have made no real progress. Our holiday is now 2 weeks away, and until 10 mins ago I had no motivation to do anything about it. In fact, I was thinking about how I can get away from my desk to go buy food. Luckily before I did that I decided to take a look and see if there was anything new on the blogs I read, and I found something that's made me give myself a little kick in the backside, and think although I've wasted most of these past few months, I can still get back on track and make a (much smaller) difference in the 2 weeks I have left. Even if I'm not in the shape I wanted to be, I will be feeling so much better after 2 weeks of clean eating than if I just continue the way I am.

The post I found was one by Coco Butter (http://cocogirlbutter.blogspot.com.au/). She's one impressive gal. She wrote how she's had a crap few weeks, but is pulling out all the stops and getting back into it. It's given me motivation to attempt to do the same myself. She wrote how she made a list of everything that has helped her in the past. On that list is using all her gadgets - I have loads of gadgets and love them! And she's signed up for 12WBT again and is doing all the pre-season tasks - I'm not signing up again as I feel like I have got what I can out of it for now, and I'm going to be away for so long. But I can still do those tasks.

Anyway, here's my brainstorming list of what has helped me in the past, and what I can do to get back on track and stay there for the next two weeks until we leave. In no particular order:

• Use my gadgets - wear my heart rate monitor and sync it with the website and view my results
• Make a plan for the next two weeks - and stick to it! Plan every meal and exercise session
• Be aware - consciously think about the decisions I make, and ensure I make the right decision every time
• Don't let one wrong decision break me - so often when I make one (or more) wrong decisions I give up and it turns into an all out failure - don't let this happen - get straight back into it immediately
• Go to the supermarket - when we have no food we make bad choices
• Put yummy food on the plan - its no good making a plan full of food we don't want to make or eat as we won't stick to it
• Just get out of bed! Put the alarm clock across the room and no snoozing! Who cares if it's cold - I won't be cold for long!
• Make an inspiration chart - the first few times these helped me immensely - I don't even look at the one on the fridge any more. It needs updating.
• Look how far I have come - pull out my before and afters and take a look
• Try on my small clothes and see what I can fit
• Read the 12WBT forums - not an option right now as I'm not signed up, but surely I can find some other inspiring reads (like Coco Butter) that will provide the same motivation
• Check in with myself each night - spend 5 mins every night before I go to bed thinking about this stuff and focusing on myself and how tomorrow is going to play out
• Stop reading my Kindle on the way to and from work - save it for before bed only - reading is one of my triggers - all I want to do is eat - instead just walk and think about things, or read something inspiring
• Eat breakfast before I go to work

I'm actually looking forward to going home now, heading to the park and doing my exercise with Parker. I do have basketball at 9, but I was supposed to do a session this morning - there is no reason why I can't do both!

More ups and downs

Feels like it should be Friday already and it's only Wednesday! Been a massive week at work. It's all going well and I'm loving it but it's pretty full on. Got 2 new massive projects starting up which I am looking forward to... I think! 

Been a crap week so far eating wise though. Way to much for dinner last night and I had a binge today. Been feeling a bit sick too. Just a head cold but makes me feel lousy and haven't done all my exercise. Did manage to get up and do an easy workout this morning though and played super hard at basketball which is good. Actually looking forward to running in the morning! Hope I feel up to it! 

Jillfit today is still about insecurity. I have to name 3 situations where I felt insecure, threatened, upset or disappointed. Hmmm...

1. Where I feel like someone at work is getting what I think I deserve or getting put ahead of me or just plain doing really well or better than me

2. When I feel like Greg doesn't care about keeping our house nice and I feel like I need to badger him to help out our clean up his stuff

3. When I'm out and other people who are much smaller than me are discussing how fat they are or how much weight they have put on our just even how heavy they are and without fail I am heavier than then and likely will always be as I am so much taller

4. When others are complaining about something outside our control like how bad the reffing is at basketball or some moron politician 

5. When people are taking about politics or musicians or actors I know nothing about

Ok so that is more than 3. Oh well. Now I guess I am supposed to start being aware of the situations. Next step is to work out why i feel like that apparently. 

The view from my workout this morning:

Up, down and now back up again!

Was a little bit rubbish today and yesterday. Woke up after the party a bit hung over, also with a cold and just feeling lousy. Needless to say I didn't do my exercise. I didn't eat too badly. But wasn't great either. Also didn't manage to get up this morning. Still feeling pretty sniffly and rubbish.

Feeling like I did better than normal though... I didn't binge at lunch, just had sushi. And just did a workout. Going to have to shuffle my days around this week as I didn't do Tuesdays one but at least I did something. Looking forward to getting up tomorrow and getting back into it properly.

I forgot to write about Sunday. Greg and I took parker for a massive walk and stopped for a picnic. It was lovely! My legs felt great after my big run, but they were pretty tired and sore on Monday.

Today's Jillfit is about insecurity. I have 3 questions to answer:

1. What's the most important thing I want to achieve out of my weight loss journey?
To lose enough weight that I don't feel and look fat any more - let's go with 10kgs.

2. Why is that important? What will it mean when I achieve it?
So I can feel good about myself. So I am healthy. So I'm not the fat one in the group (I'm already the tall one, don't need to be the fat one too). So I can wear whatever I want. So people will look at me and see a tall pretty woman, but a fatty. So I can look good on the beach. So I can look like the wife I want to be for Greg. So I can look good in my holiday photos

3. Is there a scenario where I may not achieve this but I will be ok?
Yeah. I won't be happy about it. But I will be OK. I will just still be fat and I will feel gross and disappointed in myself but I will be OK.

Phew. That was quite hard. Especially number one.

I can walk

Actually pulled up really well after my 12 km run last night. Woke up feeling pretty good. Did some work then Greg and I took parker for a really long walk and he even went for a swim. I think he loved it. And I did too. We walked for about 2 hours.

Went to a friend's party tonight and I did well. Took it easy on drinks and nibbles. And then was good when we continued on for pizza for dinner too. Pretty happy with myself. Prob drank s little too much but much less than normal.

Jillfit today is about brutal honesty. Here we go...

If left to my own devices, I would spend all day doing this: reading my book and pottering around the house and maybe crap movies

The 3 adjectives I hope to portray in the world & to others are: happy, relaxed, friendly

An example(s) of when I was each of those 3 things is: ???

I feel the most fulfilled and excited about life when I am doing this: following through on my plans

Besides fiction, the genre of book I am most interested is: fantasy

In times when I am obsessed with food or binge, the #1 reason I do this is: because I can

When I feel uncomfortable in my skin, in that moment, I feel: awful, shy, introverted, want to hide

I feel most beautiful when I am doing this: eating well and exercising and not being a lazy slob

I know this positive quality about myself (I don't need anyone to affirm it): I have long legs and am normally positive about situations

Hmmm... Will read through that again tomorrow when not so tired and not a bit tiddly :)

Wonder if I will be able to walk tomorrow?

Knackered! Had a pretty Damn good week. Work is ruling. I exercised plenty, including 2 evening ones when I didn't get up in the morning. I even ate well. And it wasn't even all that hard! Feeling a little tired and cranky. But that's too be expected. Quite pleased with myself!

Got up and did some work this morning which had been hanging around for ages. Didn't do enough but made a stay at least. Was planning to go for a 12km run but it was pouring down. So i put it off. Then we were out and about doing errands and finally got home around 5. Was feeling so tired after putting the groceries away and just wanted to collapse with wine and cheese. Instead I went for a run. I started out thinking I will just go for a little one. Then I was aiming for 5km. Then 8km. Then 10. Once I hit 9 I though 3 isn't much more so I pushed through to 12km. And it felt good! There were times I struggled (the first few kms were so slow) but mainly I powered through it. So glad I went even though I am exhausted now and my glutes are so sore I'm not sure I will be walking tomorrow!

My mindness exercise for yesterday was to be aware of my feelings and try determine what caused me to feel like that. Thinking about today I got quite upset and angry at Greg a couple times. Looking back I think it was due to me thinking of all the things I need to do and not having time. And also being annoyed at myself for not keeping on top of my work like I should. And the messy house. The may house Greg can contribute to resolving but the others are up to me to either do myself or all for help.

Oh and also I'm just really tired and low energy from the change up to doing more exercise and eating less. That will get better though. It always does.

Mojo is Back!

Had a much better last few days. I think the main instigators were being organised, and drinking my water. When I look back at my "fails" after a big success, for pretty much every one, I've been disorganised and have stopped drinking water. Add this to being tired or hungover, and it's pretty easy to see why things have fallen by the wayside. It's so much easier when you are in that state to eat comfort food, and order if you have nothing in the house. Going to the supermarket it way too hard!

Anyway, this week have been exercising and eating much better, and I'm feeling good! I've also stumbled across Jill Fit (http://jillfit.com/) and signed up to her 10 week mindset course. It's probably just another "get rich (or thin) quick" scheme, but I like some of the stuff she is saying. I know how to exercise, and know what to eat. What I can't seem to get consistently correct is my mind. Apparently for this I get an email a day, and some exercises to do.

The first email was about Trust. Basically trusting the process more, and giving up some control. This is something I struggle a bit with. I feel like if I give up control, I will go out of control and eat everything (which is essentially what happens when I get unorganised). She says if I give up control, then I also give up the food controlling me. Hmmm... Anyway, the exercise is to write down the 3 most terrifying outcomes that might come to pass if I give up my control over food, then think about them and determine if I can deal with the outcome. Here we go:

if I give up my control over food...

1. I won't think about what I eat and will eat way too much meaning that I will get even fatter - I can deal with this outcome - I already have! It's not good, and I don't want it but I can deal with it.
2. People will see how much I eat and think I'm a gross fat pig - this is harder. I often hide what I eat from others. If I give up control, then does that come out? Not sure I am ready to deal with it.
3. Can't think of #3

I kind of get it. Giving up my control is not a free ticket to easy anything, and even if it was and I did nothing really really bad will happen. And maybe if I give up control then I will stop obsessing and thinking about food so much and it will lose its control over me. Let's hope so! 

Lost my Mojo :(

Well, I had one awesome week. I did so well, dropped some kgs and felt amazing! Then we had our Christmas in July party. I even did super well at the party - didn't eat much fondue and had a sensible sized meal. I did drink a lot though. Anyway, woke up the next morning feeling proud of myself, then proceeded to completely self-sabotage. So dumb! For the next week I proceeded to eat anything and everything I could put my hands on. I'm now right back where I was 2 weeks ago. I'm two weeks closer to Europe, but have made zero progress. Why do I keep doing this???

I'm getting back on track though. I think once again, one of the main causes was not being prepared food wise. We ate rubbish that whole week cos we couldn't be bothered going to the supermarket. We had no meal plan, and nothing to make yummy healthy food. Meant lots of takeaways, buying lunches, and eating crap. So disappointing!

This week however, I'm starting to feel back on track. Still didn't manage to get up on Monday, but at least I got up and did something this morning, and we've had two good dinners in a row. Good healthy and good yummy. The fridge is full with yummy healthy food, which I am actually looking forward to eating. Now just have to stick to it. We've missed most of our opportunity to get in shape for Europe, and the timeframe for Operation Europe is definitely shrinking without progress being made, but we still have 4 and a bit weeks to go. That's long enough to make a difference, and that difference in how we look and feel will make a big difference to our holiday. It's worth 4 weeks of sacrifice. I can do this. Not only I can. I will. I've started already, and continuing now. Going to do the dishes then a quick ab workout which I didn't do this morning. Then bed and lights out before 10:30 so I can get up to exercise in the morning. I loved my run this morning. I really enjoy it. So dumb that I stop doing it...

Go Me!

Feeling much more motivated and back into this the past few days. I've been eating better (not amazing but better!), and have done 4 exercise sessions. Made some stupid excuses and didn't get out of bed to do this morning's one though - was feeling so exhausted after last night's basketball, and bed was so snuggly. I did really enjoy the extra hours sleep! Debating now whether to it after work. I would like to, but there's a lot we need to get done for Christmas in July on Saturday. I just need to make a commitment to it I guess...

Pretty happy with myself at lunch - had loads of opportunity to overeat, but just went home and had my leftovers which were tasty as. Wasn't great at breakfast - had myself a scrambled egg and haloumi wrap. Didn't get up early enough for breakfast. No coffee this morning though.

An update on Operation Europe: first weekly weigh in today. It hasn't even been a week and I'm down 3.1kgs! Yes I know, those first few come off really easily, but still! Feeling loads better. And I have another win - lately I've been wearing my jeans with the button undone, and just the belt done up (shhh... don't tell anyone). Today I have had the button done up all day and it hasn't even been uncomfortable. Amazing what a difference just a few days makes. Need to keep at it - imagine the difference a few more weeks will make! 6 weeks to go today. Can't wait!

Picking up the ball yet again...

I've totally dropped the ball... been lazy, eating too much and just pretty damn useless! Time to get my A into G and get back into it. I feel so good when I am doing well. Today and yesterday haven't been too bad. Exercised both mornings, and ate pretty well - not perfect, but so much better than the past few weeks have been! I'm tired, but I'm feeling a bit better. Looking forward to the well-oiled machine feeling when it's easy to get out of bed and things don't seem such a mission.

I've spent some time tonight re-looking at my goals and making myself yet another geek sheet to try keep focused. We have just over 6 weeks until Europe. I'm going to kick ass and be feeling so good about myself getting on that plane!

My Operation Europe Geek Sheet - can't wait to start filling it in. What a geek!! :)

Some simple things I've realised that I need to remember:

• Parker doesn't have to come with me every morning - it's ok to go for a run without him, and taking him for a walk is NOT an excuse to skip my workout. This morning we went down to the park with my yoga mat and I threw the ball between my sets (or at the top of every other pushup) and we both had a fab time. Yesterday morning I left him at home and he was just fine!
• Drinking water is massive for me - I find when I'm drinking lots of water I am far less likely to overeat later in the day. Seems simple, but often I realise it's water I'm craving far too late. Need to reach for the water bottle first, and if it's empty go fill it up!
• It DOES matter if I overeat - when I take the time to plan and prep and I will do SO much better, and when I eat things which aren't in my plan I undo so much of the hard work I've done, and I feel horrible and like I've let myself down. I tell myself it doesn't matter and I can do better tomorrow. This isn't right - I need to do better RIGHT NOW!

I also need to keep remembering why I am doing this and that there is no more "I'll do it later". I need to do this now, for Europe, and also for the rest of my life. I loved how I was feeling last year when I was focused. Need to get there again - one step at a time - every day be better than yesterday.

I'm looking forward to getting my mind and body back into the right shape. Go me!!

So tired...

Am absolutely exhausted tonight. Did am awesome workout this morning and then played bball tonight and am feeling it. My body is pretty sore. Feels good though! Played hard at bball but didn't do that well. We got smashed.

Eating wise today started well with porridge this morning and then leftovers for lunch. But then I caved and had a stupid binge. Stupid mind telling me it's OK cos it's totally not. Least I didn't have dinner after basketball. I'm hungry now but feel more like sleeping. Don't think I will get more than a couple pages read before I pass out tonight!

Tomorrow will be a challenge as I'm going to chatswood on the train. It's one of my triggers.  I buy food then scoff it on the train. Not tomorrow. Tomorrow I am going to be awesome!

Ready steady go. No more failures!

Had an average day today. Work was great. I'm loving my job right now which is awesome. Had a good morning. Got up and did my workout outside in the back yard. It was a little cold but not to bad. I did most of it, but didn't do the abs. Just got a little bored. Will do the abs soon I think. Once dinner settles.

Eating was pretty bad. Breakfast good - yummy porridge and kiwifruit. Lunch initially good with a tuna egg sammich. Then it went downhill. Today with butter and cheese. Then had to go to chatswood for work and proceeded to buy not one, but four sweet slices, and ate most on the train. So gross. Most weren't even nice and just made me feel sick. I did throw most of the last away. Why do I do this to myself? I know it's putting me back but I can't stop. At least we made dinner. Thought I did help myself to some cheese while it was cooking.

Tomorrow is another day. Need to eat well if I am going to succeed. No more failures. I am going to chatswood again tomorrow or Thursday so will prove to myself that I can go out and about without inhaling food. I can do it! Now to do my abs before game of thrones. Ready steady go!

Back up again today

Morning run selfie. Think I need to practise the selfie pose...

Man, I'm totally up and down like a yo-yo. Was feeling so terrible about everything yesterday afternoon. After I wrote the last post Greg and I took Parker for a walk and I relaxed and things started looking up. We had a nice dinner, even though it was not what we planned cos neither of us could be bothered going to the supermarket. still it was fairly healthy, and we didn't order!

When my alarm went off this morning I was so tempted to go back to sleep. Getting out of bed was so incredibly hard! I made myself do it though, and am super glad I did. My run was good but hard. 10mins easy, running drills, then 8x 3min at 80%. I was stuffed by the last! Then I jogged home again, which was longer than the planned 5mins. I was pretty slow, but I got out of bed and did it. It was such a lovely morning too. Cold, but clear, and the sun came out.

I've done well so far with my eating today too. Forgot breakfast until later than I should have, but I did have it - yummy porridge which I made at work. Made for a very happy warm full belly! Then a pizza / pita / wrap thingy which I had half of at two different times.

Friends are coming over to watch the basketball this evening. We've got a lot to do - need to take Parker for a walk, clean up, go to the supermarket and do a little work all before they arrive around 7:30. Going to make sure I am good with my eating tonight. Luckily these friends don't drink, so there will be no temptation there!

Update before bed:
We did good! Luckily I got home from work early in time to take Parker for a walk. We so nearly caved and didn't go to the supermarket, but we made it, and had dinner on by the time friends arrived. I didn't overeat, and didn't drink. Go Me! And the right team won the NBA! Go Spurs!!

Today was a good day :)

The view on my run this morning. Pretty cool to have this just down the road from my house. Such a nice way to start the day!

Down

Feeling really down and crap tonight. Just full on sad for some reason. No one thing in particular, just lots of little things adding up I guess. It's been a great week at work, but my eating has been horrendous, and exercise pretty much non-existent. Feeling fat and gross and pathetic. It's not helping that the house is a mess and we haven't been to the supermarket. Also just worked out that the glass that the boys smashed when they were drunk the other weekend was one of the precious glasses my sister gave me for my 21st. Those glasses traveled all the way around Canada with me, back to NZ, then over here to Aussie. They have been n our shelves for less than 2 weeks after being in storage for years, and already one broken. It sucks!

Also doesn't help that Parker is being a right pain cos he's bred, and he's terrorising the cat. Poor cat!

I need to get myself into gear. There is not long at all now until Europe, and I've worse off than when I started Operation Europe. Feeling so down on myself. Need to get my act together and get sorted. Maybe I should just go for a run now. Get it out of my system. Will probably feel so much better. But it's dark, and it's cold. And today is supposedly my rest day. If I run today will I be too tired for the workouts this week? Mind you, I need to walk Parker in the morning as we won't have time tomorrow after work, so won't be doing a proper workout then. Unless I can get Greg out of bed to walk him. Don't really see that happening though.

Thinking I just needed a rant. Parker is going crazy. Think I will take him for a walk and get some time out for both of us.

Trail run done!

Yay. I did it. Got out of bed in the freezing cold and ran. Go me! I did pretty well I think. 7km through loads of hills and tricky terrain in 53 mins. Quite happy with how I went and already looking forward to beating my time next time!

I ran almost the whole way. Only stopped when I caught up to a whole load of people walking up stairs. Now sitting in the sun waiting for prize giving. Should probably just go home. But the sun is really nice!

Wondering whether to have bacon and eggs and coffee or to wait till I get home...

I am a moron

Reasons why I am a moron:

1. This week I have eaten anything and everything I could get my hands on. Sweets. Savory. Sugary drinks I don't normally touch. Butter. Lots of butter. And cheese. We've had take out 3 times. Some days I have eaten enough for a whole family. Why do I do this?

2. I have hardly exercised this week. A couple of pathetic sessions is all I have done.

3. It's late and I have to be up early for my run tomorrow but yet I am writing this. Maybe an excuse for not going as I will be too tired.

4. I haven't done hardly any ski Club work in days. Barely enough to just keep afloat. And I have loads to do. It's a long weekend and I'm going to have to now work a lot of it.

So so stupid. I've fucked up again. I had such a good week last week but this one h had been atrocious. I'm back to worse than I was 2 weeks ago. I do so well but then I sabotage it. Was feeling so good and my skin was looking better and clothes starting to fit better. And now I just feel terrible. Fat and bloated and head aches and just all round gross and disgusted with myself.

Last week I started operation Europe. We only have about 2.5 months until we go. Not long. One of my goals is to run these races. The first is tomorrow. I've been looking for reasons to not do it. But they are all just dumb excuses. My bag is packed and clothes laid out and alarm set. I'm going to get up and do it. No excuses! Let it be my first step to getting started again. I can and will do this. Time to get some sleep. My alarm will be going of way too soon.

Woot! Proud of Myself Today!

So this morning, my alarm went off at 8am, and I could hear the rain on the roof. I was supposed to be getting up and going for my run, but was quite thankful for the rain and my bed was so comfy and that seemed like a perfectly good excuse to stay in bed. I drowsed then read my book, and the rain stopped. I got up and put on my running clothes, but then pottered around, in the back of my mind knowing that if I procrastinated long enough there wouldn't be enough time and I'd be of the hook. Then, not sure why - maybe thinking about how well I've done so far this week, and also thinking about Operation Europe I decided to just freaking do it. So the shoes went on, and out the door I went. And it was great! I ran for 9kms, and felt like I could go further. Then when I got home I did the rest of the SSS workout too. Felt exhausted after, but also really good, and so proud of myself for just going and getting it done!

All up, it's been a pretty darn good week. A few slip ups (out for lunch, takeaways last night, more wine than planned), but nothing major, and am back into my exercise and loving it! The scales are already showing a smaller number, and I'm already fitting into clothes better. I'm wearing a dress I haven't put on in ages tonight, and although I've been slimmer, I feel good. Just need to keep this up and I'll manage Operation Europe no problem!

We're off to R & J's house soon for a 1st birthday party. They decided to have a party for us adults, so I'm sure there will be loads of wine consumed. I'm not feeling too bad about it though because of my run, and also think that will help me be sensible tonight, as I won't be thinking ah well, start again tomorrow. Instead I will be thinking about my run and the effort it was, and not wanting to put myself backwards.

I'm looking forward to continuing with this now. Today it's not too hard! :)

Operation Europe is Underway!

I've been reading a blog called Coco Butter by a girl who is also doing 12WBT. She does "operations" as her targets, which are sort of count downs to a certain timeframe or event. I like the idea, so have adopted it, and am starting Operation Europe! Her's are usually about fitting into a specific item of clothing. I haven't yet decided whether I will do that, or just work towards feeling awesome being in Europe, although maybe that's not specific enough!

Anyway, so far I have some weight goals, and also a list of running events  I want to do between now and then. Unfortunately as I didn't get my act together I missed the first one :(. No more excuses from here on though!

Weight Goals:

DATE	WEIGHT	REWARD
21 May 2014	85
20 Jun 2014	80	massage
18 Jul 2014	76	night / weekend away
15 Aug 2014	73	new clothes for Europe
20 August 2014	72	Europe!

Running Events:

• 10 May - Botany Bay Trail Run
• 8 Jun - St Ives Trail Run
• 13 Jul - Sydney Harbour 10km
• 20 Jul - Garigal Trail Run
• 3 Aug - St Ives Trail Run
• 10 Aug: City 2 Surf

Bring on Operation Europe!!

I'm excited about this! Been a good week so far - need to continue this through the weekend.

Ok decisions today

Had a pretty good day all things considered. Got up and did my workout which I actually enjoyed. Had a busy day at work. Ate well breakfast and lunch.

We went for a walk with parker after work supposedly to get something to make for dinner, but ended up at the Indian place down the road. It was actually quite good and I am proud of myself for how much I ate. I did well. Had a bit of wine though. Was lovely to sit and chat to Greg about our Europe holiday and have parker there with us too. Everyone loves him!

Bit later to bed than I wanted to be, but I fetal a pretty good day.

Go me!

Making the right decisions

Today has been a good day. So nearly didn't get up and do my exercise. So glad I did. And it's made such a difference to my mood today. I'm pretty tired but in a much better head space.

Came home at lunch and ate leftovers and then we just made eggs for dinner. Some of the guys from work went out for drinks and wanted me to join but I decided not to. So many good choices! Yay me!

Did my 12 min run this morning. I worked really hard but didn't beat my distance from last week. Just a bit sluggish. Looking forward to arms workout tomorrow to give me legs a rest!